alone.
funny how i really miss melbourne so much more than i ever missed singapore when i 1st moved to melbourne.
i wonder if it's the friends i've made there. or maybe it's the life that i've made there for myself.
iv fallen in love, found a great bunch of friends, reared a pet.
but then i always wonder about the friends i have in singapore and how that relates to everything else.
it's almost like my 11year friendship with charmaine, and my 21.5(+3)years with my family isnt enough to keep me from my 3years away.
hmm. i wonder if that came across right. hm. it sounds right in my head. looks funny written. meh.
i know i want to live in melbourne. but then i still feel like i have duties to fufill in singapore. like its my responsibility being the eldest.
or do i say 'fuck all' and live for myself? let them 'suffer' some more before i take on responsibility as such by returning to melbourne.
plans change so quickly.
what i thought would be happening now in my life isnt happening, not even remotely (jobwise that is)
lovelife wise, is more than i could ever imagine. still unbelievable at times, im so happy.
dont know what i ever did to deserve such a wonderful person i can call my girlfriend, and make future plans with.
time flies so quickly. still feels like yesterday when i was scared to touch her, let alone hug her. ahhhhh. memories.
the day the we're together again is still indefinite; but i guess it doesnt look as bleak as it did 2days ago..
only then will i feel whole again.
