i've found love - never thought i'd ever find it, always imagined being an old cat woman. she's the greatest thing that's happened to me. period.
but now comes the juncture, where a decision has to be made.
1. to be with her in a foreign land - a place where we're both non-citizens, but she's been there for a coupla months now, as i have for a week. find work, and live there for however long necessary.
2. to remain in singapore, and please the mother. getting a job here - which isn't coming my way at this current point in time because the market's crap.
of course at the end of this, what.. 12mths? return to melbourne..
i've been back and forth with this for awhile now.
all i know at this point in life, is that i want to be with her, and i'll do whatever necessary to achieve that.
but, i have no means of doing that. no money, no job. i can't take care of myself at the moment, much less her.
i've never been in this position before - i know full well my responsibilities to my family. logically speaking, it's irrational to uproot myself to a completely different country, not knowing what's there. job interviews can be set up, i've been offered 2 at this point. but they're only interviews, nothing's solid. then i've also got an interview in singapore, come tuesday.
but my heart. i want to be with her. she seems to like taiwan. i do too.
venassa tells me - you have to make this decision based on what you want. not what she wants, not what your mother wants.
there comes a point, where you know as much as you want to listen to your heart, your brain steps in.
i dont know if my brain's made an full entrance yet. at the moment, it's only a sneak peak.
all i know is that one of us has to make a decision. we can't both be running around each other. it's not practical. the question is who.
should i make that leap, and be with her?
or stay here, and hope that she'll come.
im dont know if im worthy of her making the sacrifice to come and be with me. she's young, so much ahead of her.
even to this date, exactly 8months later, i am still overwhelmed over the fact that she wants me, to be with me.
choices. if only someone could make them for us.
